Appetitus Rationi Pareat...

Moving Away...

2006-08-13T06:30:50Z

Hey I realise I haven't posted on this thing in years and in recognition of that i'm finally moving all my shit over to myspace in attempt to gain some control over this blogging gig...

So yeah, from now on i'm here... http://www.myspace.com/appetitusrationi and I promise to try and update and be a really good little emo..well look i'll try anyway...

xxx

Home..

2006-07-16T15:58:56Z

I'm going home on Thursday.

I now officially know the meaning of bittersweet...and I hate it.

xx

Moving on...

2006-06-27T20:32:23Z

Why is it that interesting people must always pop up at the most inopportune times?

Maybe its because they are just so damn hard to pin down, after all thats what makes them interesting in the first place, isn't it?

Ughh, I need some sleep, I need uni to end and I need to stop meeting intriguing people when I have to go home in 20 odd days.

Likelihood of any of this happening: zero to fuck all, but hope is a marvellous thing...

Burning Out...

2006-06-25T11:30:37Z

So I'm coming home in 25 days or so, which will be awesome (can't wait to see everyone!), but in the meantime life is just fucking busy...

Spent most of last week frantically organising and preparing "un-birthday" gifts (in my dorm, everyone whose birthday we didn't celebrate during the year we celebrated last night) and of course my new favourite late night pastime: watching the soccer. Which hasn't been helped by the fact we actually arn't losing as we were expected to..GO AUSSIE (Guus is God)!

My uni work is way behind and i've fallen into a habit of not going for various reasons which basically means I need to attend ALL my classes from now till the end of semester, a feat I don't think i've actually ever tried let alone completed.

My dorm mates and I are off to the beach this week (yes people apparently Japan does have a beach) for our "Mata-Ne" (See ya later) party which is hopefully going to be insane, providing the Japanese rain holds out long enough for us to actually have some beach time. Who the hell has a fucking "rainy season?". Bring on Australian weather.

In the meantime I suppose its time to start organising some home things, tidying, packing (god forbid) and generally getting my affairs in order. In reality there is no time for sadness, even though I know its going to be very, very hard to leave. And my lack of ability to deal with crying people has not gotten any better as i've got older...

As much as I can't wait to come home i'm going to miss meeting new people everyday, trains that work AND run on time, the general weirdness that is Tokyo, Japanese TV and most of all my mates here. Not very insightful I know but I think sometimes its the simplest things that you miss and that hurt the most.

x

WE WON!!!!!!!!

2006-06-12T18:22:17Z

Well, we did. And its late and i'm bored, so YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Marriage

2006-06-06T08:16:06Z

Why is it the only time the Government appears to have any haste in acting to resolve an issue, it inevitably has to do with things that don't need "fixing"! With the Conservatives in the US pushing for a re-write of the Constitution so that it more closely resembles ours (oops, apparently someone forgot the little "marriage is between a man and a woman" stipulation in thier version, shame on them :P), why don't we all join together and sing along to the tunes of the Christian right!

Phillip Ruddock is an asshole.

http://www.smh.com.au/news/national/ruddock-to-overturn-act-gay-law/2006/06/06/1149359734884.html

Sleep is not desired....

2006-06-05T14:19:42Z

So, as I promised certain people I would, I'm starting that sleep thing tonight, dammit. So it will be off to bed at midnight for me and seeing what 6, or well, at least 5 hours sleep does for the system. Promise to keep you all updated on the results.

I so haven't done the required work in order ot start this today but oh well, as Nori is telling me, I need learn how to manage my time better. Which is a skill that surely can't hurt.

x

Regular Sleep??

2006-05-31T13:56:39Z

Hmm, so I've been in a really funky mood all week and I guess now I'm finally sitting down long enough to blog about it. I have a sneaking suspicion it may also be to do with the mountains of work i'm looking at very intently right now...

Been thinking about the past, the present, the future and everything in between (yes, so emo, I know) and more importantly what i'm actually going to get around to doing next year (when god forbid I will actually be a GRADUATE)!

Basically have decided I really, really, don't want a job, have little to fuck all interest in "furthering my education" and really, really, really want to travel. None of which are practically feasible options but hey, its nice to dream occasionally. And as the increasingly depressing world news constantly reminds me, that the planet needs dreamers as much as it needs to round up and shoot all the 'practical' lawyers and so-called "mediators". Fuck pragmatism and fuck rationality.

So what do I actually want to do? Ideally just travel around South America and/ or Africa, do some aid work and forget for just a little while that people's expectations can and will sink you if you let them. Sounds awesome if you ask me.

As Kate tells me, i'm sure i'll be over this phase by tomorrow but in the meantime I really feel I would like to be able to exercise some control over my own life and actually choose what I want to do next year. Although i'm aware I need money, I need a career and I need to start to build my life right now I feel like just getting out there, being who I am and having some fun.

Cheers
x

P.S. On top of all this emo introspection have decided to undertake a bold, potentially deadly experiment next week. Am going to set an actual bedtime for myself, actually sleep in a regulated pattern and shock gasp, try and get the recommended 6-8 hours every night. It better do wonders for my soul, because atm its sounding like a harder task than Everest.

Running the State?

2006-05-29T05:09:59Z

Was sadly living in the hope that Mr Iemma had something better to do with his time.

Apparently not....

http://www.smh.com.au/news/national/gay-books-at-daycare-inappropriate/2006/05/29/1148754909758.html

Blackouts...

2006-05-28T09:50:30Z

I love those nights when you basically remember everything that went on (well all the important things anyway), but you still have cute little memory blanks.

Filling in the gaps is good Sunday fun...

Sickness...

2006-05-17T15:37:19Z

I hate feeling ill.

I hate unpredictable weather change.

I hate not being able to sleep when I know I need to.

I hate having more work than one human can possibly fit into a 24 hour day.

I hate the fact that in less than 70 days I have to say goodbye to my "family" here and to a year of fantastic experiences.

x

Addictions...

2006-05-09T06:35:28Z

My head feels like a pin cushion, however instead of pins, invisible martian men are driving 6 inch screws through my head...slowly.

I want to believe this is not a withdrawal symptom.

Bastard addictions...

I need more pills.

Golden Week

2006-05-08T06:30:31Z

Have discovered two good new things this week. Well, actually, two great things but I best not get too excited lest they disappear into the ether...

Firstly, the weird sleeping nap thing is working :D! So, the result being about forty minutes of sleep every couple of days is keeping me ultra hyped. Excellent.

Secondly, have been doing an insane amount of unnecessary research for the one English based course I am doing over here. As a result, have rediscovered a love of research. No, really. Am actually greatly enjoying it atm. Although i'm not sure if thats because I actually am enjoying the process itself or just the act of researching why John Howard is a fuckwit. Either way, this reeks of a two week fad and i'm sure i'll be over it well before I get back and actually have to use my research skills...

In other news, Japan had three consecutive public holidays last week (otherwise known as Golden Week), which, combined with my regular days off meant a week off for me! Lots of rooftop relaxing, lots of Karaoke and one very interesting indoor picnic were among the highlights. Oh, and LOTS of alcohol. So much so that i've sworn off alcohol for a week. Well till Friday anyway. Will keep you updated on that one...

x

Theories...

2006-05-01T15:31:27Z

So, i'm planning on testing a theory (old wives tale whatever) that I remember reading at some point. It had something to do with NASA research but I have no idea as to the validity of that....Anyway, said theory says that the perfect nap is one that goes for 22.5 minutes and, if taken properly, can account for as much as 3-4 hours real sleep. So, I figure two or three power naps a day and i'm good to go right? Or maybe i'm just crazy. I'll let you know anyway...

x

Little Things

2006-04-23T11:51:54Z

Sometimes its just the little things that count.

Or leave you with a ridiculously stupid smile on your face anyway.

x

Photos...

2006-04-22T07:29:38Z

Mmmm, well, I put some photos up on my MSN space a little while ago, however only now when procrastination has become me am I actually remembering to blog about it. Just some pics of the heat, (Thailand and Singapore were absolutely fucking insane), also some other piccies of The Great Escape and all its fabulousness from when I went back home.

Just got in from Uni, not only class but a test today, ick! And i'm so far behind its not even funny, what kind of fucked up country makes you learn things in the FIRST week???

In other useless information, saw a girl at uni today who was the spitting image of Alex from The OC today, 'cept with shorter hair (yes, I was a obsessive fan for a good season and a half). Crazy likeness. Good way to start the morning ;). Must introduce myself someday...

Also, not that its funny (which is isn't), but does anyone else think its ironic the first Aussie soldier to die in Iraq dies because of an ACCIDENT?? Not to say that accidentally shooting yourself in the head isn't an impressive feat in itself...Christ, just reinforces the whole fucked up nature of the situation I suppose.

xo

P.S. How many more fucking members of the AWB are left anymore? Cole inquiry has got to get SOMEONE for this, surely, maybe, pretty please..

Still alive....

2006-04-16T14:11:26Z

So yeah, I realise I haven't blogged on this thing in years (in all actuality i'm sure its only been a couple of weeks; but thats emo years anyway isn't it? ;)). So, really, this should be a blog filled with actual updates and goodness, pictorial and otherwise but i'm way too tired for that to be the case. Maybe tomorrow. Tonight i'm just feeling like a rant and i'm sure this will be filled with ranting goodness.

Flew into Tokyo this morning at about 6:30, complete with a crisp five degrees and some wonderful rain to accompany it. Australian weather is really like nowhere else in the world. And i'm becoming so much more damn appreciative of it.

So, other than the gorgeous weather loved every bit of my trip back home, it was so amazing to see everybody, hear the stories and the gossip and just generally catch up. And for everybody I missed out on seeing there will now twice the obligation when I return in July/August!

Went to see Hawksley Workman at the Vanguard with Kate and it twas insane, as was Great Escape. I'm in love with Hawksley, was before but even more so now. Its strange how certain situations and places in time feel oddly right. To be back gigging with Kate feels like home.

As for Great Escape, SILVERCHAIR ROCK! No elaboration required. Sigur Ros were equally awesome and certainly more visually stunning, everything i'd expected and more. Very wanky, artistic, decorative lighting photos coming soon :).

Anyway, I think thats enough for my sleep deprived little brain right now, photos and elaboration will be up as soon as I find time and energy.

Ky xoxo

Musing...

2006-03-30T21:20:40Z

P.S. The Whitlams latest album is white hot and its been way too long since i've seen Tim in concert. Strike that; its been way too long since i've seen anybody in concert. "12 Hours" is just so dark and visceral; pure, utter bliss.

Musing...

2006-03-30T21:20:38Z

All Nighters...

2006-03-30T20:35:04Z

So, I realise I haven't blogged on this thing in ages, what can I say, better things to do?? I promise an update full of yummy goodness and photos just as soon as soon as i've sat this fucking test for Japanese this morning. And after i've cleaned my room. And maybe slept just a little. I've forgotten how good it feels to see the daylight poking through in the morning and breaking the aura of the night. Oh and the feeling of being super high on caffeine and sugar *dangerous addictive patterns creeping back...*, thats good too.

xo

Going on Holidays, Finally!

2006-03-14T03:11:29Z

So, i'm off to Thailand and Singapore today, yay! Won't be back till the 23rd, yay for the lengthy break, i'm really looking forward to it.

xoxo

Bureaucracy...

2006-03-09T14:01:19Z

Centrelink on steriods. On a Friday afternoon at 4:30pm. With one 'Customer Service Operator' serving and the rest cooling their heels until they can kick you out the door. If you can picture this you have a rough approximation of my trip to the Immigration Office today.

Day started well, planned to leave at 10 with Dan and Yolande, actually left at 10:30, all my fault but not too bad considering. Got to the office around 11 followed the signs upstairs to the "Re-Entry Permit" section where, strangely enough we thought we might be able to go about our obtaining our re-entry permits for Thailand. Hmmm, turns out the forms are actually housed on the ground floor so down we trudged. Back up again, fill out the form, take a number. I always think the problems start when there is more than 100 numbers in front of you. So number 426 patiently waited for the queue to move along from its current numerical value of 309. Anyway, naturally after a while we were hungry, so taking advantage of the convenience (or perhaps the strategic placement) of a 7-11 on the ground floor of the building I head down to get some food only to return to not one, not two, not three but four of five tellers having gone on lunch. TOGETHER. So by this point were up to 360, but also down from five tellers to one. So we waited. And they lunched. All four of them. For a solid hour. I'll give them one thing they were punctual, gone at exactly 12, didn't return to exactly 1. Then, when we finally did get served and handed over all the appropriate ID, turns out you also need to go back downstairs to the convenience store to pay the fee and get a stupid stamp thing. Which, naturally could not have been done in the previous 2 1/2 hours we'd waited. A half an hour later we were finally out of there but for fucks sake!

On another note, I want to see the Holden ad that is getting Germaine Greer all hot under the collar! Bound to be another amusing social commentary to chronicle her descension into madness, although I must say I do agree with her that Condoleezza Rice is Cruella De Vil and very poorly disguised at that.

I'm itching to go to Singapore and Thailand atm, feeling really weird and super hyped. Sleep is making me feel like shit. On that super chipper note,

xo

Calling all Amish...

2006-03-08T03:47:21Z

This makes me angry, very, very angry...

http://www.nytimes.com/2006/03/07/national/07abortion.html?_r=1&oref=slogin

Have a read, let me know what you think.

On another note Doug Cameron and the AMWU shit me to tears.

Alright, enough whinging today.

xo

So...

2006-03-05T18:47:15Z

Updated some photos (or perhaps more accurately stole some from Tim's web photo thing...) on my MSN space. Nothing new, just some memories of days when the weather was warmer and we all look a lot happier as a result! Established two things in this process. One: Kodak Gallery is the most irritating photo hosting site on earth- period. Two: It is clearly a lot warmer here in summer than I remember, can't remember the last time I contemplated exiting the flat in anything less than jeans, a jumper, a coat, a scarf, the list goes on.

On a more irritating note, whoever posted a link to that ridiculous website here on my LJ has clear mental issues (even taking my Fascist leanings aside ;)). Firstly, learn to spell, secondly, stop throwing around terms and figures when you clearly have no idea what you are talking about. I'm sure that the allegedly few Russians who don't think that "the net effect of the Communists for the USSR was good" would surely be amply satisified with the justificationn that "...the left wins the body count because we killed less than the right". Sometimes ignorance really does defy belief. Oh and if someone I know actually happened to post that bullshit, buzz me and we'll have a chat and a beer when I get back to Sydney, should be good times ;).

Anyway, aside from that unpleasantness, its been a good, productive night. Finished all my friggin e-mailling that I have been letting backlog, paid off my credit card (again!, they are the spawn of the devil..), did some writing, read Tokyo by Mo Hayder and got myself reaquainted with some Sigur Ros. Icelandic bliss. The book wasn't bad either, better than expected and did actually finish some Kanji study. Relatively few considering, but hey something is better than nothing right?? Right??

Due to be even more productive this morning when I go to pay last month's rent (I just keep forgetting, honest ;)), clean my room, do my washing and hopefully pick me up a nice Aussie drop to wash down my Monday night and celebrate my productiveness tonight. Here's hoping.

xo

mm

2006-03-05T15:23:04Z

Cool little quirky fact:

March 5th 1946: Churchill gives his famous "Iron Curtain" speech
March 5th 1953: Joseph Stalin dies age 73

Ironic if you ask me. Probably just the history nerd in me speaking.

xo