| May. 31st, 2006 @ 10:35 pm Regular Sleep?? |
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Current Mood:  contemplative
Current Music: RHCP
Hmm, so I've been in a really funky mood all week and I guess now I'm finally sitting down long enough to blog about it. I have a sneaking suspicion it may also be to do with the mountains of work i'm looking at very intently right now...
Been thinking about the past, the present, the future and everything in between (yes, so emo, I know) and more importantly what i'm actually going to get around to doing next year (when god forbid I will actually be a GRADUATE)!
Basically have decided I really, really, don't want a job, have little to fuck all interest in "furthering my education" and really, really, really want to travel. None of which are practically feasible options but hey, its nice to dream occasionally. And as the increasingly depressing world news constantly reminds me, that the planet needs dreamers as much as it needs to round up and shoot all the 'practical' lawyers and so-called "mediators". Fuck pragmatism and fuck rationality.
So what do I actually want to do? Ideally just travel around South America and/ or Africa, do some aid work and forget for just a little while that people's expectations can and will sink you if you let them. Sounds awesome if you ask me.
As Kate tells me, i'm sure i'll be over this phase by tomorrow but in the meantime I really feel I would like to be able to exercise some control over my own life and actually choose what I want to do next year. Although i'm aware I need money, I need a career and I need to start to build my life right now I feel like just getting out there, being who I am and having some fun.
Cheers
x
P.S. On top of all this emo introspection have decided to undertake a bold, potentially deadly experiment next week. Am going to set an actual bedtime for myself, actually sleep in a regulated pattern and shock gasp, try and get the recommended 6-8 hours every night. It better do wonders for my soul, because atm its sounding like a harder task than Everest. |
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